Dear Friend,

Dear Friend,

Dear friend,

I know that you’re not okay. You’re not eating. And I know that little black book of yours is a self-hate journal. I didn’t read it. Well, I didn’t pick it up and read it. But when I was sitting behind you early I saw the word disgusting. You not eating and that makes me firmly believe that it’s a self-hate journal. If it’s not, feel free to prove me wrong. I don’t know if you’re harming yourself and I’m not going to make you tell me because I don’t want to smother you. But you’re my best friend. I don’t want to lose you. Since you’re not eating, I assume that you think that you’re fat. You. Are. Not. You’re not a stick, but neither am I. You are a healthy weight. But you’re enforcing unhealthy habits. You can’t just drink tea and coffee and water all day and call that sustenance, because it’s not. I’m trying not to shove food down your throat because I’m afraid you’ll go and puke it up. I’m assuming that if you’re self harming again, that you do it when you feel you’ve eaten too much. Please don’t do that. I don’t want you to go overboard. I don’t want you to get put in the hospital because you go to long without eating and pass out. Moreover, I don’t want you to feel that it’s all too much and kill yourself. You have no idea how much I would blame myself. I know that I myself am not the healthiest of people and I don’t have the healthiest of habits. I have self harmed. I still have days where I want nothing but to slice my skin open. I haven’t for a while though. There’s also days that I think, “I’ll just eat a little and drink a lot of water.” But I end up eating(not binging or undereating) because the food I make tastes way better than just water. I do eat junk food but I also eat my home cooked food. It’s not perfect but it’s been working for me. I still go through times of crippling depression, but I work through it. Not by writing hateful words in a journal, but by cooking or watching a good movie. I’ve kind of lost my train of thought but this is still really important to me. I want you to stop hurting yourself and start eating healthy again. (I’d also like you to throw out that black journal(or at least rip out the self hate(if those pages exist)))

Stop Self Harm

If you are starving yourself, cutting yourself, throwing up your food,or hurting yourself in any other way PLEASE STOP. You are beautiful, you didn't do anything wrong- you don't deserve anything other than happiness, there's NOTHING wrong with your body. Your weight does not define your self-worth. You are beautiful, you are amazing, you deserve to be happy, and anyone who tells you otherwise isn't worth your time. Just do whatever you have to do to be HAPPY! SMILE! LAUGH! YOU DESERVE IT! So put down the razor, eat a sandwich, and keep those fingers away from your throat. You should never be afraid to smile- you never know who's falling in love with it.
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